I am in a most unfortunate situation. I work in a building where my ex works.
We don’t work for the same company thank God! But she works for the business that has the floor space a couple of levels down.
I always accepted that there was a likelihood I would bump into her.
Once I saw she was walking towards me so I dived into the nearest store, which happened to be a Starbucks. To not arouse suspicion I stood in the queue making sure the coast was clear.
The barista goes “What can I get you?” Realising I hate coffee, I say “It’s okay, I changed my mind!” and I suspiciously walked out the store to many looks.
It was inevitable that I couldn’t keep hiding.
One morning after a hard workout, I walk to the store to get eggs. I am about to enter through the door, when she comes out of the exit. I am in a choke point… there is no escape this time.
For a split second I think I could blank her and pretend I had not seen her, but it’s too late… she’s looking me directly in the eyes, unless she’s gone blind there no getting out of this one – and I don’t see a white stick.
“Hello…” I say “Hello!” she says in her enthusiastically fake manner. I feel my whole body shaking, it could be from the gym or it could be because I don’t want to be in this situation.
We make small talk for a minute when she goes “Well, got to go! I am already late for work!” I count my blessings as she waddles off.
I don’t really feel hungry now, but buy the eggs anyway. I feel bad for a split second, all that hurt she once created, but then it stops.
I think of all the good things that happened to me as a result of how she treated me – getting in the best shape of my life, finding a good job, not being a deadbeat who sits at home and plays video games and of course Vicky – a girl who saw something good in me when I was ready to check-out of the relationship game.
With the ex treating me bad it created that ‘trigger’, where I was determined to keep building a better life that continues to this day. I laugh and think “God, she is fatter than ever” and continue with my life.
I guess I can’t keep hiding forever